reformed_badass

I QUIT.

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 04:56:58 GMT

Because I upset everyone. I have decided to quit. I'm sorry but I cannot take the stress on top of my own stress.

kthxbye. ilua.

This is for Jess + Craig too. Coz I'm too lazy to cross post. Its been fun kids.

WOMEN

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 08:47:52 GMT

Wow. Guess I kind of forgot about this thing huh? Amazing what happens when you're too busy for a computer. My life has been pretty... eventful I guess. ~~I almost left Alex for Ellie and then married Alex in Vegas..~~ Alex and I have moved across town, we're living in a small townhouse now, it's plenty big enough for us, and we even have 2 spare bedrooms for people when they crash. I guess I should also mention we went on a little trip ~~to Vegas of all places~~ and we tied the knot. Yep thats right; Nunez and I are officially married. We decided that since we're pretty simple people, we didnt want a huge fuss being made.

Drinks to celebrate at ours, this weekend - Everyone is more then welcome to come.

WE MIGHT AS WELL BE STRANGERS

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 12:42:02 GMT

we might as well be strangers in another time
we might as well be living in a different world
we might as well be strangers.

So alot has happened since I last updated this thing; including a brief stint in jail. Basically for those who don't already know; I'm on trial for assault with intent to kill. It's a load of crap. The guy had a heartattack after I punched him okay? and besides he deserved to get the crap beaten out of him for what he put Alex and her mom through. Yeah so okay. I intended to hurt him. But how the fuck was I to know he had a heart condition? They don't exactly let you know about those kinds of things do they? Thank god I have Alex. I don't know how I could deal with all this shit without her being around.

Craig is back in town; its been good catching up with him. We've played a lot of XBOX and I'm teaching him how NOT TO HIT LIKE A GIRL. Next time there is a fight Manning, you better be able to back yourself. Mainly doing all this to try and keep him distracted while he kicks his drug addiction. I'm not even sure Ellie knows how bad it is. The amount of times I've gone running with that guy at 3am lately....Alex notices me leave bed. She knows about Craig so its okay I guess. Spinner and I drank like champions a couple of weeks ago at the RAVINE. Who knew that night would be so eventful. Congratulations again to Jess for her little Germ. oh and Sully too I guess. Congrats man. Hope everything works out okay for you guys. It was an INSANE night though. ~~I promised Alex forevr that night. All I see in my future is her. She's the love of my life you know?~~

I suppose the other fact that I should confirm right now is that YES; Alex and I are engaged. Not sure when the wedding will be, but both of us are pretty certain we don't want to wait. It will be something small, just family and close friends. That's if she ever speaks to me again after this whole Ellie thing. I cannot believe I kissed her. It was just in the moment. Yes I love El, and I hate seeing her hurt but I am in love with Alex. I'm with Alex. I can't keep going to back to Ellie everytime she breaks a nail. Can I?

Oh and the Grouplasertag/Pizza in the park today has given me stomach cramps. Hogart; you should call me. We need to catch up soon. ~~coz im so over all our shit.~~

DRAMA

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 09:21:30 GMT

So I guess the news is out; so I might as well make it official. Alex & I are together. We're happy and that should be all that matters. Granted it could of come out under better circumstances. Ellie, Jay, Alex & Me; its quite the incestuous little group. I still can't really get my head around the way things went down. Ellie and Jay having sex? Jay kicking me out? Ellie kicking Alex out? Alex having to turn to her mother and getting the crap beaten out of her? Ellie and I actually talking rationally? Actually that last part is probably the most bizarre of all but whatever.

Thanks to Kendra, it's also out that I'm currently residing on the Mason's couch. ~~Her crush is getting a little crazy...and stalker like. Spinner HELP~~. It was really nice of them to take me in. It's also pretty cool having Spinner right upstairs. We're getting in lots of talking. Spin is one of the only people I trust well enough to talk to about stuff. He's definitley my best guy mate. Honestly though? I'm worried about him. Ash really did a number on the guy, and Ellie or whatever is going on between them isnt helping either. Why do i feel more comfortable with Spinner kissing Ellie then thinking about Jay and Ellie ? weird a lot of quality time with the Xbox.

I spent most of the morning with Alex; we had to find somewhere for her to crash for a few days. Luckily Sully had a spare couch, who would of guessed that kid would turn out alright huh? I'm asking a guy at work about an apartment that he's renting out. It's a modest 2 bedroom, although i don't really think we'll be needing the second one. Problem? It's in the same complex as Ellie's apartment. Hopefully Ellie and Alex can keep their claws to themselves. I hate seeing her hurt. I hate knowing that Chad can hurt her. If I ever see that guy he's going to wish he didnt exist. Then this afternoon I ran into Ellie in an unlikely place; not that I should of been suprised. She always did like it there. We talked for awhile ~~actually more like a few hours. It was longer then we've talked in ages. I think we both came away feeling a lot better about our friendship.~~ We'll have to catch up again soon.

Better go; Kendra is trying to read over my shoulder as I type this. :P Seeyas.

UNINVITED

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 15:10:50 GMT

I've been spending heaps of time with Alex recently. It's weird. We've been friends for so long, but now I'm learning all this other stuff about her. I love that she trusts me, and that we can just hang out without there being any awkwardness. The scary part? I know I'm falling fast and I know that this could end at any moment. If Ellie finds out about us...I don't even want to think about it. I mean, I love Ellie. I've been in love with her for as long as I can remember but now... I love Alex, always have as a friend. She's almost like a soulmate or whatever. Add in romance and... this could be really really bad for my trainwreck self. Not to mention...there's always the possibility that Nunez is going to leave me for a girl. weird. We've been spending time rebuilding the "bestie" part of our relationship. We got breakfast at Denny's this morning, and I swear to god - that girl can eat. I have no idea where she puts it. and have I mentioned how sexy it is to have a girl in my life who doesn't give a shit about watching what she eats all the time?

We had an almost fight. Our first as a real couple. I might of mentioned that I had told Spinner about the two of us. She was NOT happy.

Stopped by Ellie's and said hey. Beyond Awkward. I spose I could of thought up a better excuse then Billy biting my neck... geez. and whats with her jacket being at my place this morning? I don't even remember the last time Ellie was over. She must of stopped by for Jay's pancakes or something.In a lot of ways I just wish we could go back you know, to before... all this crap. When I first came back. When we were friends... ~~I'm scared that Alex & I are going to kill her.~~

If anyone wants to come over for a Sunday Sesh, we have BEER.

God this is fucked

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 16:48:09 GMT

So I've been pretty busy the last couple of days. Guess people really took me seriously when I said I wanted to catch up. Here's the 411.

Emma:
We just hung out at her place and talked. She has this way of making sense of me when I really need it. ~~I thought of maybe taking things to the next level, even said that we should hang out more. I guess things are more complicated now but Em really is a great friend. I can't lose her.~~

Ellie:
Sometimes it hurts to love that girl. Seriously. I don't exactly know what happened, one minute we were kissing and the next it was over... for real this time. I know it was unfair to give her the ultimatum but seriously, I just can't take it anymore. I can't always be waiting for her. We talked about a lot of stuff...I think we are both finally ready to move on from this relationship now. ~~Or not.~~ No matter what, I'm here if you need me.

Alex:
Where do I start? When you need a cheer me up, go to Alex. She really is my best friend; and honestly? I don't know who I would be without her in my life. We went out to an old haunt of ours and proceeded to get it on. Yes, Alex. I can't believe I never saw it before; how incredibly hot she is, how funny she is, how she seems to seriously just know me better then anyone else in the world. She puts me in my place, she tells me what to do and she is an abso-freakin-fantastic kisser and lover and.. .GOD this is fucked. It's completely fucked up but at the moment its the only thing that makes sense to me. I just don't get how I never saw all of it before. we drank and danced a bit and then she ~~proceeded to fuck me senseless~~ crashed at my place. We have to do it again soon.

Spinner:
Hey dude. The fries were great. The conversation was awesome too. ~~He's in the exact same situation I'm in. Well Kinda. We both havent told Ellie about our secret relationships...~~Next time we'll include beer yeah?

If anyone else wants to catch up let me know. I'm beat and gonna go crash now.. ~~or maybe call Alex and see if she wants to come over.~~

mysterious ways

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 00:20:12 GMT

So interesting news, let's see... ~~i had sex with Ellie.~~ Billy and I have been watching a lot of Jerry Springer? ~~I cannot believe that I let myself give into those emotions again. I really need to get a clue and move on. For good.Coz that girl is just going to keep a hold on my heart otherwise.~~ Emma we need to catch up and soon. I miss not having you around work as much. How does pizza sound?

Living with Jay is pretty cool, although he's been acting a little weird lately. I believe he actually bathed?!!? If anyone knows which mystery girl is actually causing him to be clean, report to me. I must find them and... I dunno. Pay em or something. ~~but seriously i would love to know. Since when does Jay actually keep secrets? Weird.~~

Went to see Jess the other day. That girl is so messed up. She virtually admitted to me that she thinks she's in love with Toby. But she cares about and respects Sully to much to end things. That she really does want a family for thier baby. I just.. I hope this all works out for her. Because teen pregnancies rarely end well. Though her baby bump is kinda cute. Its the first time I've ever seen that tummy anything but washboard flat. I love curves... She's doing well, given the situation n all. I dropped off some ginger and a teddy bear. She also gave me some pretty good advice~~, about the Ellie thing. I need to start dating again and soon. This is killing me just waiting around.~~

I'm heading over to catch up with my fave girl, Lexi so I'll catch you guys later.

PARTY, BE THERE LOSERS!

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 06:20:38 GMT

is it just me or is it getting be like impossible to see anyone? Heather and Jess take off for a last second; summer vacation, Spinner goes MIA, Paige and Alex remorph into Palex (which i am wholeheartedly supportive of btw), and between work and lame ass back to school/college stuff, you all go boring on me.

Here's the 411. Since the only party I can gather on the cards is being held by Sully; ~~and lets face it, he probably has enough on his mind right now~~I decided to have a little party on my own. See my boss has this little beach house down in Wasaga and I thought, hell why not. I booked it for the whole weekend.

Come on, you know you want to liven this summer up. Bus (Yeah Im driving a bus, deal with it..its roadworthy) leaves at 4pm Friday.

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 04:06:50 GMT

((Hey guys,
I'm only going to be available on the weekends from now until the 11th of September. Thanks for being patient with me. If anyone wants to RP via email, and I'm not around, try kimmaree.price@bigpond.com, I regularly check that at work lol.
- Kim.))

BACHELOR PAD

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 01:28:32 GMT

So I’ve moved in with Jay and Billy; total Bachelor Pad. Moving out of the apartment was horrible. Ellie and I had another fight, and I just can’t handle it anymore. I want to be with her but I think it’s becoming more and more obvious that we just can’t keep going through all this crap. I miss her alreadyThough I do think we’re missing one bachelor *cough* Spin *cough* Did you know that Billy is so good he can work the remote control? Officially awesome, I’m going to teach him to cook spaghetti next week. We shall start a revolution!

Work is still crazy. The apprenticeship is set; which means I’m not going back to Degrassi. Can’t say I’m disappointed coz I always did prefer to play with cars then anything else in school. College and me? Please. Like that was ever going to happen. ~~Also this way, I’m not going to be proving to everyone what a dumbass I am~~

I’ve hung out with Emma a lot lately; we did the old horror flick and double cheese pizza act that we used to do back in the day. It was good just to chill out with someone. ~~She really is so great; just takes my mind off all the serious stuff going on. The more time I spend with her; the more I find myself wanting to spend time with her.~~ I also talked to Jess, who is pregnant. I cannot believe she is having a baby with that jerk Sully and that she broke up with Toby. I know how much she liked Tobes. She’s insane. I told Ellie about it. Yeah I’m going to be in the shitanytime you need me – I’m here okay?

Anyone wants to catch up, you know my cell.

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 02:28:37 GMT

No you’re not hallucinating; I’m actually updating this thing. I said when I started this; I’m no Toby and I wasn’t going to let it take over my life. But since it has been awhile; here are some important things to consider:

I’m back in the apartment. ~~It feels beyond weird but I’m doing it for Ellie’s sake. She felt abandoned. Why can’t I just move on and let that girl go already? Love sucks.~~
Work is crazy! ~~Emma is keeping me from going completely insane. I wonder what would have happened if I had stuck with her. Guess I screwed that up completely.~~
Hanging out with Ashley a bit. She’s pretty cool; and awesome with the marshmallows. Weird that we always seem to find each other when we’re vulnerable.I wouldn't want to be where she is on this whole Sully/Spinner mess. Although now maybe Sully will realise how it feels to be the other guy.
Jess & I caught up and really talked for the first time in forever. I understand now how much I hurt her; how it looked to her when I ran back to Ellie. I hope now she realises that she meant a hell of a lot to me too. It was weird, she’s been putting on this brave front but deep down she’s hurting heaps. When I asked her about Toby she looked distracted, like she was hiding something. I hope everything is okay there.

Yep I’m boring. Jay, Spinner – Guys night is needed urgently.

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 04:30:51 GMT

I feel like I lost my closest friend.
I don't want to fall asleep alone, but do I want to wake up with you?

Its weird the way things happen. How does one go from icecream and bad television to tequila shots? How do you go from your apartment to Paige Mikalchuk's couch? I guess it starts by falling for a girl.. and then ends with broken hearts. Whatever you do. Don't buy the bullshit rumours going around. Ellie didn't do anything wrong.. ~~well she doesn't deserve shit for not knowing what she wants does she? Not like she can help that she's still hung up on Sully is it~~and it shouldn't be anyone's business but ours. She's still amazing and I want her to be happy.

Went out with Spinner ~~after the break up~~ the other night. Got a little smashed; he's a good friend though and made sure I got home okay. If you didn't already know it, he is totally THE MAN. Couldn't really stay at home though ~~it was too hard being there. ellie and me are all over that place~~. so I went over to Ashley's and ended up crashing on her couch. ~~We talked about a bunch of stuff and ended up having a mutual cry. She stayed on the couch with me. It was kind of comforting.~~

Paige offered me a couch to crash on until I sort stuff out. If someone had told me I would be staying here 3 years ago, I would of called them a liar. But something good comes from everything. Well I'm going to go talk to Alex, she's bringing Nash over for a visit and I miss the little guy!

YEAH YEAH

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 08:28:50 GMT

Ellie & Me at the RAVE. ~~Before the Sully incident.~~

It was alright. Did a couple of mates some favors. o~~r dealt some drugs depending on how you look at it.~~Tried to help Sully out of a fight, I plead temporary insanity and it will never happen again ok guys? You might have noticed things were tense between me and El, ~~coz she wouldnt stop with all this Sully bullshit maybe?~~ but its all good coz she came home and we talked and everything is fine. ~~maybe.~~ If anyone wants to do anything this week, give me a yell.

E-MAIL.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 17:35:48 GMT

From: Sean C.
To: ALL CONTACTS;
Subject: RAVE!!!!

Rave tonight. If your coming, be at my place by 8pm. Alcohol & ~~...disco treats~~ will be provided there. GlowGear is a must - and if you don't look hot you WILL NOT get in. So to the geek patrol - go shopping FIRST.

Get back to me.

((Everyone is usually on by 11am EST right? If timezones confuse you, go here. and look for your city! thats what time you need to be on for the groupchat! ))

MY SWEET GIRLFRIEND..

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 19:06:03 GMT

Told you I was gonna post it :P. Isn't she hott?

Took Toby to a strip club, never again! The guy was like a pro, at one point I think he had 3 ladies all trying to have a go. I also bought him a few ice teas.. from Long Island :P I'm trying to convince him that winning the ladies is all about confidence. He has it so bad for Jess. Thing is, I know if she was with a nice guy like him and not a loser like Sully then she'd be great. She wouldn't have any problems fitting in around here. Coz she is a nice girl who's just had some issues. I just hope she wakes up and realises Toby DOES like her and he would treat her right. For his sake anyway.

Hey Nunez, we gotta catch up; and cause some trouble okay? Something is seriously going on with her. I know that she'll tell me when she's ready but I'm kind of worried. Also hey, I miss her. Without sounding girly, she's definitley my best friend around here. Well other then El of course. It's like she's pushing me away right now and I don't like that feeling at all. Also anyone that's interested, this Saturday night, there is this underground rave happening outside town. Top Secret Location ;) and I just so happen to have the map and the right words to say to get in! If you wanna come, let me know. It will be more fun as a group. ~~A couple of the guys are thinking of taking pills and offered me some, havent decided if I want to yet. I've taken em before but yeah.. never around Ellie. Don't know how she'd react.~~

Alright, I'm out. Have to go buy some stuff for dinner, I'm cooking :) You heard it here first lol! ~~I want to do something romantic for El, candles and everything. Yeah, I'm whipped. and I love it.~~

SORRY

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 17:18:47 GMT

Most confusing few days ever. I'm still kind of comprehending it. I did some stuff I'm not exactly proud of. Um so Emma and I aren't together anymore. I still care about her heaps but I guess I realised that I was just kidding myself. Emma was almost crying when I was there earlier. I guess I didnt realise how attached she would be to me in just a few days. I do care about her, I do.. I just couldnt let this chance with Ellie slip away. Yeah like you all didn't see it coming or know about it. I'm in love with Ellie. There you go freaks, happy now? Sean Cameron and PDA. Never to be repeated.

Little excursion to McDonalds last night sucked. Never going there again as long as I live. It always ends badly.

HAHA.

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 13:34:26 GMT

If you had me alone, locked up in your house for twenty-four hours and I had to do whatever you wanted me to, what would you have me do? All comments will be permanently screened because it's a secret. Details, please!

BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 13:35:25 GMT

So the weekend was kind of eventful. At least the guys at work won't be bothering Emma so much anymore; since she has a boyfriend now. Nice timing Cameron, you finally decide to let go and attempt to move on from Ellie and what happens? Sully and Ellie are over. Although with those two who really knows how long things are going to stay over. Cannot believe Jess is sleeping with him. If she's sleeping with him. Gah. We decided to give it another go now that we're older and wiser.. ~~I'm so over being lonely and I know she feels the same way. I've always cared about Emma so why shouldn't we really do this. I need to get over Ellie. I have to.~~

The housewarming party was uh.. interesting? Ellie and I had our first fight since being roomies just before the party started ~~coz her and Spinner caught Emma and I about to have sex on the couch.. yeah smart move Cameron~~, Jay made pancakes, Sully&Ellie broke up again, Somebody smashed Sully's BMW ~~(Liberty)~~ and possibly the weirdest part of the night? Toby got drunk. Go figure.

WTF!

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 07:48:13 GMT

Oh no he is NOT sleeping on my couch. Does he want his lip to match his eye? What was Ellie thinking...on MY COUCH? Couldn't she of taken him into her bedroom? Do not hit Sully, Do not hit Sully, Do not hit Sully. This mantra thing is not working!!

Loser found on MY couch, answers to the name of Sully. If he belongs to you, come pick him up. and hurry the fuck up about it.

KNUCKLES

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 09:13:46 GMT

Interesting week; been working hard (Whatever Emma tells you - I do work lol!), it's going great. The boss and I get along pretty well and looks like I might be getting that apprenticeship next year. Hell yes. No more school. I've also found time to chill out with Alex ~~She seems to be doing better, thank god her and Ellie made up. I knew they couldn't stay mad at each other forever. Girls. sigh.~~,who is completely crazy and always manages to chill me the fuck out.

I'm sure everyone knows about a certain incident that occured at Sully's last party. He deserved it, enough said. I'd do it again in a second as well. I cannot believe Ellie is taking him back AGAIN. Makes me kind of angry, she couldnt give me a second chance yet she will take back a loser that cheated on her. He's screwed up more then once now.. it just. ugh. makes me so angry!

I officially have a new housemate. Ellie moved in last night and things are running smoothly. Not that I thought they wouldn't - though I did notice that the ice cream that was in the freezer is now gone - women! lol.

Also saw Jess today; I'm glad we sorted some stuff out - although now you've gone and confused me more. I hate you :P

If anyone wants to do anything, just call me. I'm up for it.

Work.

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 12:07:25 GMT

I love work. I never actually thought that I would utter those words, but it's true. I get to play with cars all day - I'm practically in heaven. Plus its keeping me out of trouble and paying the rent; though that will get a little easier once Ellie moves in. I also see Emma a lot more now because of us working together. By the end of the summer, she will be my protege - maybe she'll even know cars as well as i do.

Also - I'm planning a road trip to Wasaga this weekend if anyone is interested. Need to pick up some of my stuff. and hell, the beach.

Also do this, I WANT:

1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note. It doesn't have to be for me.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. And a hint to who you are

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 16:50:24 GMT

6xThirteen
7xPeter Pan
6xHarry Potter & the Goblet of Fire
21xDegrassi TNG

teasers...

@_ffs

Shit Week

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 16:02:56 GMT

Alright so two things have happened to me of importance this week. Got an awesome summer internship at this autoshop, it's going to be great. The guy said that if it works out, I might even be able to continue next year. No Yr 12. Awesome. 2nd important thing - Spinner and my girlfriend decided to have a make out session.

Yes you were all RIGHT. Go figure.

Results of this? Now I have an ex-girlfriend. Also, my friend Spinner? Not feeling so friendly towards him right now. What's a guy to do? Get completely wasted and go and visit Ellie Nash of course! Why Ellie? Because Ellie is the most amazing friend ever, and she also makes really really strong coffee.

Seriously though. I cannot beleive Heather would do something like that to me. I mean I defended her and I trusted her. I stood by her through all that shit with her parents. Don't even get me started on Spinner. We were sposed to go drinking this weekend! For fucks sake.

Whatevr. Shit Happens. Ellie has a way of taking your mind off things, including her moving back in! Can't wait.